WASHINGTON, D.C. — "It's a special place," Grand Forks police sergeant Danny Pemberton said as he knelt at the wall.

As they fought back tears, one by one, members of the Grand Forks Police Department looked for a familiar name that has been forever engraved into Panel 64, Row 32, of the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial.

"I didn't think this would hit me this hard, but it's been emotional," Pemberton said.

Adding to the emotions were the pictures of officer Cody Holte placed around his name. For Corporal Jessica Thorlacius, she said it hit her like "a ton of bricks."

"The last year and a half has been really hard on our entire law enforcement family and our entire community," Thorlacius said. "(It's) so special to come here as a group to honor him, to support each other (with) what we have gone through."

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Along with the feelings of sadness, there were feelings of guilt that the 29-year-old husband and dad did not return home that night.

"He was the one who died that day out of all of us out there," Thorlacius said.

While it was a time of great sadness as they made rubbings of officer Holte's name on a keepsake piece of paper, some had a little chuckle inside, saying nobody could write Cody's name quite like Cody could.

"He was just a little bit of a sloppy hand writer sometimes, we had good joke about that," said Pemberton with a laugh.

For these officers, they say it's one more step in the healing process. The wall and officer Cody Holte's name on it will always remind them how dangerous the profession can be.

"We are never going to forget him, and now his name is etched into the wall, we won't ever forget him," said Pemberton.